Today

There has been a severe lack of motivation. So nothing has been done, not even going to college :O when does that happen? :(

Will you talk to me? I tried.... and now that I've failed the other thing, I kinda need you to reply...

But if you dont, I may have to... then I'll feel silly. So I'll feel worse. So I'll need to talk to you even more. So...fail.

C'est un cercle vicieux.

This Ain't A Song For The Broken Hearted

I don't understand you.

D'autre part, I'm sorry Blundal, :( we're just the same anyway only I could never admit to it...and I'm just repeating by mistakes, taking steps backwards...

So yes, I'm struggling, stressed and finding life hard. Just coz I don't look like it.

The need for a Splurge... :')

oh, no I am not! But I shall have to be. How can I not?

Right, I don't understand. See, you ask me if you can talk to me, I say yes. So you either do or you don't. But then I ask you the same, and nothing...

And then I think ok, I'll talk to someone else. Only, I can't. And the rest of my options aren't too good either. If you'd answered my first question, I might have someone to lean on.

As it is, I'll have to make do with paper walls collapsing.

Well that was one wedding invite replied to... wasn't too bad in the end :)

Dojo Sensei :(

Driving test & Exam Results... I'd like to pass them all please :)

So will you reply or not? You're so annoying!

'I just need somebody to lean on'

It's just... you'd think I'm being silly, I'm just lonely, k?

New Shoes

= an end to bruised feet :)

I ain't gonna live forever,

I just wanna live while I'm alive....

Cause I try to climb your steps
I try to chase you down
I try to see how low I can get down to the ground
I try to earn my way
I try to tame this mind
You better believe that I am trying to beat this

Moving, Waiting, Changing...

2 months, 3 months, sometime soon... 6 months till you're out, 1 day to get you in.

So if I lost it all in, a fireball, would you be there for me?

Coz all my confidence is, vanishing, would you leave me here?

''You always say, True Love would never end, but my true love is gone...''

Is it any wonder I couldn't sleep? Maybe if you acted less like me, and more like you, and I acted less like.....

I should talk, but, you know how bad I am at that! I don't know you, so I don't know how to act around you...

And Wednesday :D

3 x a million footsteps :) so I'm exhausted.

''worry not everything is sound''

This is the safest place you've found...

While the storm rages,

The snow falls,

The rain pours,

It can't reach me.

Take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back in the arms of grace

'cos I am hanging, on every word you say...

So, until I make up my mind,

Find my courage,

Keep me safe.