Do you love me?

I couldn't decide, so I had them all ;)

I thought it was gunna be something different, like you were hiding in my wardrobe or something!!

I need to write this stuff down.

Just that I really need to be comforted, to be picked up and held, so tight. But it's not happening. No matter how many tantrums, or tears of frustration & desperation I cry, it doesn't happen. Why? Surely if you loved me...? No if about it, I'm right here. I'm just not giving you what you want.

"If this has been a test
I cannot see the reason
But maybe knowing, I don't know
Is part of getting thru"

The only thing I can think is that there's something harder in the future...that I need to be able to deal with, like this is my test run, my rehearsal. So, I'm sorry. But I'm not perfect, and I need a lot of help, please don't stop. I'll try and listen to you tomorrow. "Yet not as I will, but as you will" Hardest words anyone has ever and will ever have to say.

I know I said I'd make this more happy, but even though it's not happy, it's a positive step in the right direction...?

'Do you love any, do you love one, do you love many, do you love none?'

:P thank you, made my day ;)

Ahaha how dare she expect us to...do what she pays us to?? ;)

Oh no, He's home!! :P smelly teenager...

I made yummy yummy brownies :D and then ate them while they were still warm :) :) I've eaten so much today! I shall have to wear the curtains! ;) fatty... :L

Ce sera la deuxeime fois?

I don't know what hurt more, the sense of failure or the thwack as 4 kilos of cow and paint came hurtling through the air...

What? I don't know where you got that from, media player...! :D

More than anything, I want picking up. Scooping right up and setting back down on my feet. But do I need it? He would if I did, so I don't?

''Her name was November, She's somebody's baby, Somebody's baby girl... And She's Somebody's baby, still...''

Ha, so much for that. A week of pent up energy still waiting to vent... But I can't. I promised. You just don't play with that sort of fire...

4th Attempt. No wonder its so hard, even though it... why?? Why am I like this? Do I just not feel? It's too far removed, too far away. Somebody I only remember for the telegraph poles, the nutty cake, the dodgy gifts.

Bring it on... Numero 2. ''I'm gonna miss you, '' But you won't return it, not in the same way. Sometimes I just want to hide as I say things, but I can't if there's no one to hide behind...

Tough week, huh. 1,2,3,4...5. Really, it wasn't, just...

I hate wet leaves. Dark days, damp, cold...ugh. Sorry autumn fans...

Why did I always just jump in the middle of it? I wasn't there, it wasn't for me... Someone else's joke.

Someone else's friends, sorry.

How dare it, I wasn't listening to you!! :P

''...Love is a sadness, Love is a Madness, we are the addicts, what are we if we're not in love? These are the cages, the kisses contagious....''

''What are we if we're not alone...'' Aha strange man....I didn't know where they went, I didn't know who they were!! ;)

No, not again sorry :/ they mended the fence, and probably ate them. Can I say, I think I guessed your 'pact', I'm finding it hard to, I shouldn't say it, but... Noone else would listen?

Can you be normal to me again? Please! ;)

Ah long post. I had much to say, sorry. It's kinda depressing (sorry again) I just needed to say lots of stuff that was all in my head :) I'll make it happy later!

Are you feeling lucky, punk?

Trampolines& wet leaves& friends& dark! More fun than they'll know!

And I'll take you for who you are, if you take me for everything...

She laughed, 'They're just words!' He said nothing. The moon danced shadows on the trees.

'You want to fly?'

'No'

'Well what then?'

He turned, his face crumpled and confused. 'I don't know.'

''Its always the same'' Too right... "?

No sorry.

I know you do it, but it's like it's your thing, together. I was only part of it on that one day. Don't know if you believed me, don't care? You don't either. But it's like climbing uphill, I don't know if you even comprehend it! Even tho I've got him with me, I just don't feel it. I know I should listen, I do, I just don't hear.

I want to make you know, to make you understand. But that means holding on, and there are some things I'd rather let go, or I should, at least...

Aha don't pretend you're disappointed, 'Night Off' :) I'm not anyway ;)

Briegull, I wasn't! Ha Alice! :)

I miss our conversations, I guess I'll always be 2nd best... but, BOO! ;)

Why can't it start tomorrow? I could do with just...leaving... :]

So my brave face will stay here, but I still have that hair in my eye :/ I won't share my playlist, thank you. I don't know the song.

Law Less Molly

I hate being ill, I sound like a dying duck :(

49, 59 :D I passed my theory!

80 days to go... ;)

Its more than you know! :P Why do you always....I dunno maybe you dont? Anagrams... :D

Good rock! Cus obviously you will rock' um I will?

Oh. Maybe I shouldn't've blocked you? Shoulder-high? Hmmm I dont think so! Grr Spellcheck!!

Personal what? Oh, statement, yes. Tomorrow, or some other day, not now!!

My sock is wet for the...4th? time today!!

But 50p! :P It'll probably fall off and wont that be fun!! :D

4 or 3? B or A? Um B, 4, next?

I havn't spent nearly enough time;

1) Sleeping

2) Working

3) Working

Recently.

Ha I fail! :P

And yes, you are pants. Now please become trousers? I miss you!

Evolution, answer me this...

Why haven't we developed gills to survive floods?

This chicken may go on my art book. That would count as work, yes?

♫ am I ever gunna find out?

I hate it when spotify freezes...play, play! :)

I don't know, is it ok? Ca va je suppose...

Are you dead, sleeping or just dreaming?

Work...soonies...yeahhh...I will....

14th Jan?? I need it before then!! :/ uh tests!!

Georgia, don't let me forget...next time I navigate away...

I think I might actually need to plan CU this time...

Fare thee well, mine blog ;)

Baconnaise

Everything tastes better with Bacon on it. See this as spreadable Bacon!

Ha.

Meep to you to! But if you sent it then I was busy learning suvat :S

80% :D

What might the driver of the car do next?

Who knows, buy a newspaper??

Well paint my picture, if you must... ah he was Irish to! Le deuxieme, even if he was a therapist :S

I agree, noone does that. Even showers!

Loud noises & a crowd...HIDE

C3. Ugh.

Long time, no speak

That owl makes me smile every time :)

Theory in 10 days :O I need Ben's book but he forgot!! :O

This is true. Why are there no fat stickmen?

Ah you anorexic skeleton!

Je ne vs manke pa mais c'etait bien de parler :) il vaut mieux quand je peux parle avec qqn des choses irrelevants!

I have the headache everyone else has. Thanks. But I also have the last dose of paracetamol :D ha but I'm not telling youuu! :P

Meanie. Aha tis vrai :D

Clockwise

I don't think it was. I think the whole thing was just...rubbish...

Oh.

Eyes. Open. Now.

I only asked coz it would if I were you...

What do you mean? What do I mean?

Green Icepops and Internet tabs...

I give up, itll never work...

So I told you both the truth.

I should stop writing in here when I'm over tired, it all comes out depressing and too confusing...



So nerrr!