Small things...

"I'm running fast and free to you, for you are the movement and fight in me..."

Even when it's dark outside, when the wind howls and the storm rages; even when it all feels hopeless, when I'd love to curl up in hole and pretend there's nothing else; even if I can't see the light at the end, and I've lost sight of where life is going; even if I can't feel it, I can still remember, or remember what remembering is like.

You are the movement and fight in me. There is joy, small & fleeting, but hopeful, I have been saved.

"Remain in me, and I will remain in you"

To do otherwise would be an active step away, remaining is the easiest act I can do, and it is the only thing I can do.

The battle has already been won, the joy is ours.

Those Three Words...

If I've only learnt one thing this week, it's that life has a purpose, bigger than I could ever imagine.

The rain came suddenly, but already it looks better outside.

This still hurts, but I'll keep pressing forward, remembering these encouragements...

Every tear drop is a waterfall...

The stars looked beautiful on my way home, I stopped at a wet park bench to revel in the quiet...

There's knowing and there's knowing, I wish I knew...

"I am not my own,

For I have been made new.

Please don't let me go,

I desperately need you..."

I wish you didn't feel so impassive! Where are you?!

Holding firmly to the faith we profess...even if it's just my fingertips, will you help me hold on?

Journey again...

"This grip...never breaks...

Your words are always there to break my fall

In them I find the comfort to see through it all

Guide me through uncharted waters

Before I lose my way again

Will you be my compass until forever?"

"When life gives you lemons....

Sell them because you're a student and you have no money"

An indication of how productive my day has been/is, is the fact that I now have twitter.

Oh for an attention span of more than 5 minutes...

Normal service to resume shortly,

...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

The Bigger Picture

"Hard pressed on every side, but not crushed..."

Some small comfort in that...

We are safe. Hold on hope.

The journey...

"Yet will he bring, dark to light..."

We were created to be relational, to be creative, to be joyful. There should be no shame in happiness.

“Hear my prayer, O LORD,

listen to my cry for help;

be not deaf to my weeping.
For I dwell with you as an alien,
a stranger, as all my fathers were.
Look away from me, that I may rejoice again
before I depart and am no more.”

God understands our weeping, plant your tears in him and you will reap joy. There is no shame in happiness.

Darkness...

The nights come in quicker, the smiles come in slower.

"Where are you in my broken heart?

Everything seems to fall apart

Everything feels rusted over

Tell me that you're there..."

Strength

Beauty in the aftermath...

Where does it come from?

What my heart craves is love, what my mind craves is solitude...

"If you don't stand for something, you'll fall for anything..."

Language

Words. Who needs words? Words are so harsh, with their straight lines and their curves.

Words provide no nourishment or comfort, there is no love in words.

Words are impassive, tools of our emotions, shrapnel of our minds. Words have no feelings, they do not care.

Words paint a thousand pictures, when eyes cannot suffice, ears begin to hear.

Words begin where imagination left off, when hearts have grown cold, minds weak, words will fight.

Words survive, words wrestle and win wars, words bring back echoes of the past, full of colour, and hope.

Words. Who needs words?

T minus zero

If I could make more time, what would I do in it?

If there was always another day, how would you spend it?

When I have so much to do, do I really want more time?

"Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"

"My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest"

When you're too in love to let it go...

Now is the time to not lose heart. Now more than ever.

This is when I need to remember grace, to hold on to joy.

If I can keep my heart singing, my soul praising, this will be my satisfaction.